If you saw the latest boy/girl of your heart's affection walk into a room, would you say hello? What if you just missed their eye as they walked in because you were laughing with a group of friends and missed your chance? What if they sat down to eat all by themselves? Would you do it? Would you?
The easiest answer is, YES! That's what you tell yourself, that's what you hope you would do. But would you actually do it?
Me. I wouldn't. For the simple fact that, I'm scared. This was proven today as I ate with a group of my friends when the boy I've been waiting to talk to for weeks now walked in. It would have been a perfect opportunity, but i blew it. I'm a chicken, a coward, a wimp, and a wuss. It's not the fear of talking to someone or approaching them, it's the fear of rejection.
Rejection. It's probably the most commonly feared emotion know to man. The funny thing is, most of us are pretty familiar with the feeling; it's not a rare occurrence. Personally as a human I find it common and as a dancer, rejection is normal. I experience multiple forms of rejection on a daily basis, but the fear of being rejected by a boy... can literally make my body tremble in fear.
So now what, look at the boy and giggle like a middle school girl? Or act my age and just talk to the freaking boy? I think I'll try option two... as soon as I get another chance, stop shaking, giggling nervously, thinking about all the things that could go wrong, assuming he won't like me, actually look decent for once, am not already stressed... Oh dear God help me!!!!
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