What do you call it when anytime a happy thought crosses your mind, you hear a love song, find yourself smiling for no reason, or drift away to a perfect daydream, you think of him.
Some people would call it a crush, but I know it's more than that. You make me feel much to deeply to be anything superficial. There isn't a single hint of anything superficial between us... this, whatever it is, is real. That I'm sure of... but a crush, this is not a crush.
Other people might call it lust. But I want to spend time and just sit next to you. I want you to come over to my place and spend the day together. Cuddle on the couch with a blanket during rainy weather. Drive around with you for hours wandering away to nowhere. I want to argue with you about absolutely nothing so we can kiss and make up. I want to hang around with your friends and share weekends of hazy, drunken, memories. And then go get some hangover fried food, and sleep the rest of the headaches away with you. It's so far beyond physical, this is not lust.
Some might call it love. But I'm not sure if you can truly love someone if they don't love you back and as far as I'm concerned, love isn't worth it unless it's true. So I guess what I'm saying is that the way I feel and think about you is heading in that direction, but I would never call it love.
So what is this? I've never been one to be fed up with "titles" and "definitions", but with you somehow everything I've worked hard to believe and trust just fades to dust. Maybe I don't need a title or definition, in fact I'm sure I don't need it.
I think what I really want is for you to feel as strongly as I do. For you to tell me something to give me a clue. For you to let down your guard to give this a try. Because I'm confident we would be great. We could be something amazing, something that inspires love in others. We could be those people who grow old together and and still hold hands at every chance they get. We could see the world together and find a life somewhere where only we would dream of. We could support each other in all of our dreams and goals. We could do it all... we could conquer this world.
So what I want, what I need is for you to take that leap of faith. I promise you the first step is the hardest, but I can also gaurentee that as soon as you take that chance I will be right beside you, ready to take on whatever is thrown our way.
