Risk It All

I lie here half clothed in my bed surrounded, engulfed, in blankets and pillows
I find myself thinking about you, and wishing you were here.
My bed feels so big without you, there's too much space.
I want you back here to fill that empty space.
I need you to block the sight of my blank white wall when I look to the right.
To my right, that is where you should be.
I try to focus my mind on other things, but it's brought straight back to you,
and the fact that you belong here. Next to me. Tonight.
Every night as far as I'm concerned.
My head belongs on your chest and your arms belong wrapped around my waist.
You're meant to play me music, and I'm meant to distract you when I start to dance.
And on those days when you lock yourself up in those practice rooms for hours and hours,
it's me who should bring you back to reality and try to make it just as sweet as your day dreams.
I want to be your living day dream.
I really think I could be your living day dream.
With each other we have so much to gain and nothing to lose.
I really feel like we each have what the other needs to find,
like the missing pieces of a puzzle turning up one day after you've thought they were lost forever.
You can drag me into your world of hopes and dreams
and I can pull you right out to show you,
that those hopes and dreams are right there in front of you,
Because I live my dreams out in real life, every day.
The only one missing right now is you.
You fulfill every secret dream that I've pushed away to the shadows of my soul.
And you gave me a taste of experiencing those dreams for real,
So now I'm left lying in my bed half naked, cuddling with blankets instead of you.
Wishing that you were here.
Because you're not, and I'm not sure why.
I want to know why you don't feel the same, or if you're too scared to try.
I know you have it in you, and I know that we would be right.
And if I'm even willing to put it on the line, it's probably something we ought to try.
I want you lying next to me.
I need you lying next to me, keeping me awake.
Waking me up with morning kisses as the sun peeks through my window,
and pulling me in tighter when you feel like the space between our bodies has gotten to wide.
I need you to kiss me so hard that I forget about everything else in the world,
and I need you to look at me with those eyes as if you couldn't see damn other thing,
no matter how hard you tried.
I promise if you give those moments back to me,
I will give you everything I have back in return.
I promise that you can all of me, whatever parts you want.
I'm willing to risk it all,
for you and only you.
I want to risk it all.
So tonight I'll lie here and sleep without you,
but tomorrow, starting tomorrow I'll show you
and prove to you that I'm going to risk it all.